If you ever read this, then good, you didn’t kill yourself. There is going to a lot of pain in your life.. But he is not your pain. He loves you. Stop pushing him away and pulling him back, even he will get tired. We dream of our future together... please don’t fail me. Don’t forget about the big blue house with a white roof! Don’t forget about all dates you have to have with him! Don't forget to always say I love you even if you’re mad... you never know who you’ll lose. You don’t always need to smile, talk about your feelings, they're just as important. Remember the house you promised mom, please don’t forger that. She deserves it. Don’t forget from where you came from. Learn something new everyday! Don‘t forget the late night car drives or the grocery shopping at 4 AM! Don’t get lost in this world. Be one with God. Also, Z SCORE SUCKS. You are perfect, I love you Mely. 💓