Hiya future me, this is ya boi younger me from a time in which you may or may not remember.
You've probably have grown to be someone quite beautiful in every way possible if you keep going on the same track you've been going on. I know for a fact that you'd find your purpose then in life and if not that's totally okay, sometimes things take time even if its decades but surely enough it will reach you. Just remember that even in all the dark times there is a balance, an accompanying light side to everything which will eventually seep through. In life we have to constantly balance the positive energies of the world alongside the negative energies in the world, to live with the one you cannot live without the other. So even if things are rough, everything is totally fine!
You've got to keep chugging along, keep working on what makes you feel happy, and don't give up your dreams...ever. Don't give up on people when they need it because you may never know, you might have been their last effort of trying to survive. The best thing that we can do for each other is to just accept and completely love each other. Remember to stay in contact with people that bring out the best of you, that motivate you to be the best version of yourself. You're completely fantastically beautiful just the way you are, you do not need to form to anyone's social norms at all! It's completely okay to be weird, plus being weird is kinda cool don't you think? It's a lot better than being ... 'normal'.
I surely hope that you've done the things that younger me (now) have dreamed of, and if it's ventured off course that's fine, dude. I know for a fact that you're still bringing smiles and love throughout the world so bless you for that dude. Keep that magic going bud. ~ đ going with the flow âď¸ ~